Finally going in holidays!

Sorry that I haven´t written for such a long time here but I had a lot to do...
especially learning Finnish. And beside that, I also wasn´t in the mood to write anything in here.

But tomorrow´s night (11 AM) we will drive to Rostock in North Germany (we think it will take 7 hours driving) and from there we will take the ferry to Gedser, Denmark. This will take 2 hours.
From Gedser we will drive a loooong way to Stockholm and we will arrive there on the 27th of July in the evening.



I think we´ll go and eat something and we will soon go to bed after this long trip. On the 28th of July we will have time almost the whole day in Stockholm and I´m so excited since I have never been in Stockholm before. In the early evening we will leave Stockholm, Sweden and will take the ferry to Turku, Finland. This will unfortunately take 12 hours, so we have a cabine on the ferry and will sleep there a couple of hours.
On the 29th we will arrive in the morning as I know and I don´t know if we stay a few hours in Turku, because we have to drive 621 kilometers to Kajaani and this will take 8/9 hours until we will be there.



We will stay in Kajaani until the 4th of August and I´m happy to meet my guestfamily there in which I´ll start to work as an aupair in October and we will also do a bear-safari where you go into the wood in the night and look for bears and wolves. I´m very very excited and we´ll also have a sleep-over in a little cottage there.
On the 4th of August we´ll drive up to North Finland, to Rovaniemi in Lapland. We´ll stay there until the 8th of August and will visit a fun park, and for sure we´ll go wandering and enjoy the beautiful surrounding. :-)

After Rovaniemi we´ll drive down to Oulu and will stay there for two days because otherwise it would be too stressful to drive the whole way down to Helsinki.
On the 10th of August, we´ll drive down to southern Finland, to Helsinki and I´m really looking forward. It´s been a very long time since my last visit in September, so I´m happy to go shopping in Helsinki, walk around through Helsinki and maybe do a boat trip from the harbour.



I´ll also meet a friend of mine, Maarit. In Helsinki we´ll stay until the 13th of August and then we´ll drive back to Turku and will take the ferry back. On the 15th of August we´ll arrive hopefully healthy at home. :-)

Here is our route:

Unfortunately it´s only our route in Finland, because to show the whole route on a card would be too big, but here we go:



I wish you a good time and my fingers are crossed for Anette and her boyfriend the whole time! Hopefully, their baby will come soon and mother and baby will be healthy and happy. :-) So, good luck Anette! ;-)

I miss you :-(

I miss you
I miss you so much it hurts my soul
I love you so much it hurts my soul
Every feeling about you hurts my soul
I want you back

I have never trusted a person as much as I trust you
I have never loved a person as much as I love you

Why can´t I sleep anymore?
Because if I go to sleep, I could miss you
Why can´t I breath anymore?
Because if I breath,
I take you the air you need to live
Why can´t I stop loving you?
Because I still have hope you will come back some day again

Do you feel I need you more now than ever before?
I´m feeling so alone...

Lovelorn...

I have written this in 10 minutes or something, and it´s not a poem, or lyrics...it´s just my way of feeling at the moment. I have written this while hearing "Yiruma-River flows in you", one of the favourite songs of the person for who this is...

Why are we apart?
Why don´t you see me anymore?
Why don´t you feel for me anymore?
Why don´t you love me anymore?
You feel for someone who doesn´t feel for you
Why do you love her?
Why is this world so cruel?
Why can´t I live without you?
Why can´t I stop loving you?
Why do I have to think about you all day?
Why can´t I forget you?
Why can´t I leave you?
Why can´t you leave me?
Why do you believe her lies?
Did you have forgotten me?
Why did you become so cold?
Why do I feel so lost?
Why do I feel so sad?
Why do I feel only pain?
Why do I feel so empty?

Because you have given me everything.
You gave me love I have never felt before
You gave me music
You saved me all the time
You protected me from this world
You touched my skn
You kissed my lips
You kissed my body
I touched your skin
I kissed your lips
I kissed your body
You said you love me
I said I love you
You said you believe in our future
You said you will never leave me
You said you will never hurt me
You promised to stay with me
I promised to stay with you
I said I believe in our future
I said I will never leave you
I said I will never hurt you
But you hurted me
and hurted you
But you left me
and I´m still here...

We were so lucky
We were so happy
I saved you from death
I washed away all your tears
You washed away all my tears
We have had good and bad times
We have good and bad memories

I´m sorry for everything I have ever said
I want you back
You are my life
Your are my soul
You are my love
I´m your life
I´m your sould
I´m your love
...you said once
I don´t want to believe it´s over now
I don´t want to believe you´re away now
so far from me
I don´t want to believe I have to live without you
I don´t want to believe I have to awake without you
I need you
I need you more than ever before
You were always there
You have always hold my hand

We shared dreams
and wanted to make them real together
But you are so far away now
You are in another world

I don´t know how to go on
But I need to go on
I need to go on without you
first...
but I will never forget you
I will never stop thinking of you
I will never stop feeling for you
I will never stop loving you

And I will never stop believing...
Believing in you
Believing in me
Believing in us
Believing in our future
I will never stop believing
We will be together once again

Update 16th of July

I want to make a little update here since I haven´t the time to write here everyday.

Tomorrow I´m gonna go by train to Cologne to meet Reni and Koko. :-) And I´m sure we´ll have lots of fun all together. ;-)
I will make lots of photos in Cologne and of course, I´ll post some here, too. ;-)

Next week is also our school-leaving party finally and I´m so excited...let´s see who will come, because I really hope some of my friends from other schools and my last class will visit the party.

I´m also very curious about the new Twilight movie... Let´s see when I´ll find the time to go to the cinema and watch this new movie. :-)

Good night!

Happy birthday, Seth! :-)

Today it´s Anette´s son´s birthday and he gets 9 years old. :-)
I wish him a very happy happy birthday and much fun today!

Stay away from the streets :P

So I just want to warn you all because you should really stay away from the streets on Wednesday´s midday/afternoon. :D Because I will have my first driver lesson (practical)...hehe... Stay home, that would be the best thing on Wednesday, I think. ;-)

Czech Republic

As I´ve already written in the last blog, I was in Czech Republic and there I´ve bought so many nice things. Now it´s summer time and I think it´s necessary to wear clothes with colours. :-) I like black, grey and darker colours too but now it´s summer! ;-)

Here are my new colourful things:



So, if you´ve bought some new things in the last time I would be very glad to see these things! :-)

Hyvää yötä! :-)

School-leaving party

On the 23rd of July will be our school-leaving party and I really don´t know which dress I should wear.
I´ve bought this one at first:


I like it really much but today I was in Czech Republic and I´ve found another one dress there and bought it.

Here is it:



What do you think? Which dress should I wear?

Preparing for Finland I and other stuff :-)

So only 11 weeks to move to Finland and I´m getting more nervous every day... Unfortunately I hadn´t got so much time to prepare already some important things for moving to Finland, but since the final exams are done I have more time and yesterday I started with cleaning. I have to sort out many things I don´t need anymore and of course I also want to leave a clean room. Yesterday I´ve started with my little bathroom and tomorrow I´ll continue cleaning my room.



Beside all the preapring stuff for moving I also have to make my driver-licence before going to Finland and I´ve decided to finish the theory test for the licence before our vacations. That means that I have to go tomorrow, on Tuesday and on Wednesday to the driver school and have to attend theory lessons. Next week it´ll be the same...and then I have to learn a lot to pass the theory test. :P But it´s important for me to finish it before our holidays in Finland (26th July-16th August) because then I´ll have enough time in September to concentrate about the practical test in the driver-licence where I have to take a lot of hours driving.
And it´s a better feeling to have the theory part already behind. ;-)

On this coming Thursday we´ll get our final exams...and I´m so excited. I mean all went really well and also French was much easier than I thought it would be but I hope it was really like that...you understand? It could also be that I´ve only imagined it was soooo very easy but in the end I´ve learned maybe too less and I only thought it was easy...oh my godness...let´s see. ;-)
I´m also very very very afraid of the maths exam result. Maths didn´t go really well. I´ve learned a lot for it, I had every week training lessons for it but I had a kind of "black-out" when it came to this strange thing here:


It calls parabola and I didn´t remember anything anymore when I´ve read the instructions of the exercises. :-/ But let´s hope the best for maths...